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Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Bill's Armor

So, everything is fine with the other doctor...I'm so happy that I don't have to go back for any more tests. Bill bounced back last night after his shower. He said that he must be more effected by the Lupron than I am b/c he got so emotional about everything last night. I say that it's par for the course...how could these things NOT effect us?

Then there are the people who tell me not to let it take over my life. Okay...do you know how many times I have watched my friends and co-workers allow becoming a mother to take over their lives? It's kind of the same thing...once you make that decision, to be a mother, it is your life. Plus, if you were injecting yourself every morning and cramping and bloating and all sorts of other things, how could you get it off your mind? When my waistband rubs against an injection spot/bruise, all of the things that I'm dealing with come flooding forward...that's just how it is right now and it may not change for a long time. This infertility shit has hurt my heart in ways that I am not totally cognizant of, but I'm sure it will come and bite me on the ass when I least expect it!

Thanks to Amy for the flowers...they have kept me "up" all week with these conferences/everything else and I really appreciate them. You have so much going on in your own life that to take a minute out to think of me is so "you". What more can I say...it's just "you." Thanks for all of your good wishes and emails...they mean more to me that you can imagine even if I don't respond right away. RT