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Sunday, December 2, 2007

My Little Incubator

That's what Bill called me today on his way out to the gym...I will not be joining him b/c the headache is back. The Excedrin is staving it off for now, but I'm afraid that if I bounce around too much, it will come back.

Today's news: 8 measurable follicles - on the right we have 11.8, 12.2, 11.6, 7.3, 6.9 and on the left we have 12.4, 9.6, and 7.6 millimeters. They won't trigger me until they're around 18 millimeters. Then 36 hours after the trigger shot, I'll go in for the egg retrieval. My estrogen level doubled, so that's's at 190 right now and they're actually keeping my dosage the same! 4 vials of Bravelle in the morning, and then 2 at night with 2 vials of Menopur. I guess we finally got it right.

We spent yesterday finishing up the Christmas decorating and I spent some time convincing Bill to get the tree yesterday rather than waiting until next weekend when I may not be up to it b/c of the retrieval. We got a huge tree (I guess with us being so short, we never bothered to think about the height)...the angel clears the ceiling by a hair and finished decorating it today when we got home from the doctor's. I'm glad that we're getting all of this stuff done now when I feel like doing it b/c I just don't know how I'm going to feel next weekend.

So, I go back in on Tuesday and we get more information (more fun with Wanda and Ned). After the nurse called today, Bill asked me if I felt relieved, but it's really hard to feel relieved. Yes, I'm glad that things are moving and that I'm finally on a med schedule that will be steady, but now I start thinking about what the results will be on Tuesday. It's a vicious cycle - I guess I could mean that figuratively and literally! I don't know if relief will be a feeling that I feel until I have my baby and this process is over for a while. I'm almost sure we'll have to do this if we want any more kids and that's fine...this is just the way we have to do things...we can handle that. Relief isn't something that comes easily to me these days and that's just the way that it is.

Hope everyone had a nice weekend...I'll keep you posted! It's what I do!