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Saturday, July 19, 2008

OMG...Holy Amount of Pain Today

So, I went to lunch with friends yesterday and had a BBQ dinner with another couple. Could anyone fathom that would be too much for me to handle? My feet were horribly swollen after lunch, so I came home and plunked them into a cold bath (it was really hot here yesterday). I spent the rest of the afternoon with them up high. They still weren't good when we were going to my friend's house for dinner, but I made it through and was able to keep them up for most of the time we were there...to no avail. I wore my special swell reducing socks to bed last night, but who would have guessed that swollen feet would be my smallest problem last night.

I was having horrible pelvic pain...we're talking all over...I can't turn b/c my belly is too big...when I try to turn, it feels like little aliens are pulling out my pubes one by one...sorry if that's TMI, but today is not my day to try to please people. I got up at about 3 AM to pee and to roll over, but at this point, the sciatica was acting up in BOTH legs, I couldn't feel my feet, and my pelvis felt like two linebackers were ripping it in two...FOR FUN! I hobbled to the bathroom and actually felt much better when I was on the pot (maybe I should have slept on the toilet)...trying to get back into bed was ridiculous, but I made it. I was back up again at 4 AM to pee and decided not to even attempt to get back into bed...too much even with my little step stool. So, I slept in the guest room...it was hot last night, so I slept on top of the covers in desperation. Then I got up again at 5 AM and quickly realized that even though this bed was lower and easier to get into, it didn't make it any easier for me to get out of bed...I could barely make it to a standing position! So, I hobbled around for a while and tried to sleep on my other side. I did do that until about 8 AM when Bill came in to get me. Yes, I cried like a big old baby b/c I hate not being able to move, not being able to roll over, and not knowing how to move so that it doesn't hurt as much. Come on...what adult doesn't know how to MOVE??? I'm petrified that this feeling won't go away after the babies are born, but Bill reassured me that it would and that this is only temporary. It sooo doesn't feel like it right now. So, he relegated me to the couch today to do nothing and allow myself to heal a little bit. I just did too much yesterday...who would have thought that two things in one day would be too much? I can't wait to be myself again...I know it won't be right away, but this has been really tough on my body.

Anyway, it was a good week...the babies are doing really well...moving like crazy and I think that is what is keeping me half sane. I know that having them in there is the best thing for them, but it's getting really hard! I just have to persevere and understand that I may not be able to go out anymore...maybe I just need to do nothing as much as it drives me nuts!!! That's all for now...thanks for listening to me vent...I have nothing else to do!