I knew it a while ago...I knew that I was being censored. It's not right...this is America. No one should have to be censored in this day in age. People should be able to express their views, tell stories, share jokes, and give their opinion without being worried about censorship. Who, you may ask, ask are you being censored by? Well, it is with a heavy heart, that I say MYSELF.
Why would you censor yourself? It's hard not to when you have a blog that you've shared with so many people in my life. I started this blog as a place to inform my family about our progress with the IVF and fertility treatments. It has morphed into a forum for me to post pictures of the babies, share stories, and give little anecdotes about things that I find humorous (in my sick little mind). It's actually a pretty good tool as we don't live near our families...it's a good place to catch up. However, I have found myself being very careful as of late. I am careful with stories that I tell (wouldn't want to offend anyone), jokes that I share (wouldn't want to confuse anyone), and pictures that I post (wouldn't want to cast anyone in a bad light). The fact of the matter is that this is becoming less about me and the kids and more about how careful I am being not to offend/confuse/disparage anyone else! There is the self-censorship...so sad, isn't it?
It's true...I'm not sure who reads it anymore from the "early days." However, it always surprises me when something from the blog comes up in everyday conversation. When someone in real life mentions it, I just about fall over...either in surprise that this person still keeps up with it or because I start scrambling my brain about whether or not I could have said anything to offend/confuse/disparage this person. Isn't that horrible?
I am seriously thinking of going with my gut and starting a blog with a password. I'd still do this one to share items that are "public knowledge," but there would be another one for my innermost thoughts...without having to worry about offending/confusing/disparaging anyone...God knows, I wouldn't want to do that...or would I? ;) Maybe I'll just stop censoring myself, write everything that comes to mind, and damn the consequences...living on the edge, aren't I?
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12 comments:
censoring is dumb. i've been doing it this week too. why do we do that?
I finally had to create a sister blog to mine so that I could say all the things I wanted to say without offending "them." I love just knowing that it's there.
Let me know if you figure this one out. I censor myself constantly now. I don't like it and I don't know how to fix it. If you create another blog, how do you explain to your family why they aren't invited?
So true! You want people to read- but it's almost better when they're not people you see on an everyday basis! Good luck with your decision- but whatever you do- don't stop blogging!
Well whatever you do I need in-you're my life line!
LOL! Don't censor, if someone doesn't like what you have to share they don't have to read!
I know exactly what you mean. If you do decide to start another blog, I would like an invite. :-)
I am always careful of what I put on my blog. There are definitely days where I would like nothing more than to put a rant out there. I even started another, anonymous, blog and I never post in it. Too scared someone would find it.
pssh. yea. self-censorship. i'm guilty, too. however i *do* like your idea of living on the edge. but i suppose that i mostly talk about my kiddies. and well, they're still too young to read. ;)
How timely, Rebecca. I just said to D last night that there's something I REALLY REALLY want to (need to) blog about, seeing as the blog is my cheap therapy, but I can't as a major character in the story reads the blog!!!!
So I may still do it but just be really tactful? Then again, tactful is not really me!
I say go ahead and stop censoring - life is too short!
I enjoy your sense of humor!! I would say don't sensor yourself! That being said, I did go private just becaus as my big boys get older I feel funny having their stories out in the public eye... other than that, you do what you feel is best!
I hear ya! Sometimes I miss my IF blog because of its anonymity...no one I knew in real life read it. Now, even though my blog is private, I'm censoring myself...I don't want my loved ones who read it to think poorly of me when I've had a bad day and need to vent, or think poorly of my husband (who I'd like to vent about somedays!), etc. It's not as honest as it could be. Oh well, not sure how to get around that. Good luck!
Oh, I know what you mean! I have a ton of older family members who read the blog. I try to avoid upsetting them. It annoys me I do this.
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