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Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Bathing Suit Season...and I'm slightly more horrified than normal! Emphasis on "slightly."

So, typically I view wearing a bathing suit as something that I'd rather not do, but can tolerate. I'm in decent shape and my abs have always been my favorite body part...until pregnancy...that is, until my twin pregnancy. Don't get me wrong...I am so happy to have my kids and can't imagine my life without them. I miss them when they take naps (sappy, ain't I?). It's just that they have completely ruined my abs!

I don't know when it started, but at some point, I got the separation. There is an abdominal separation that takes place in some twin pregnancies and it sure did take hold of my body! When I first had the kids, the separation was definitely noticeable when I would flex my was about 3 fingers wide! There was a freaking hole in my stomach!!! Now I have it down to about one finger, but my abdominal muscles are going in all different directions! There are times that I still look pregnant. I am worried that I will never be able to have a flat stomach again...without surgery, that is! The other weird thing about my abdominal area is the placement (or should I say replacement?) of my belly button. It used to be about 4-5 inches south of where it is right now. What happened there? How did that move? It makes no sense to me, but now, due to the separation, it sometimes has the tendency to stick a third nipple...I'm so sexy! It happened at the gym yesterday...I saw something out of the corner of my eye, but kept doing my exercises...suddenly, I was like, "What the fuck is that?!?!?!" and it was my belly button...just peeking out to say hello!

Okay, focus...I was writing about bathing suits. I bought a new one this year thinking that I wouldn't really want to squeeze my ass into a string bikini like I used to (nor could I, but that's another story). I got a tankini and boy's actually pretty cute! So, I put it on today and I'm quite comfortable in it. Do I still think I have a huge ass (okay, maybe not huge...just something to hold onto)? Sure, but I have always had that issue. Did I think that I would be able to get into my old bathing suits this summer? No way, but I did kind of hope. Am I as horrified as I was last summer when I got into my maternity bathing suit? Absolutely not...those legs were not mine. I can't even believe they were attached to my body! I was so freaking swollen! Am I pretty happy with how far I have come in 9 months? Yes...and that's saying a lot as I don't often pat myself on the back for my physicality lately. I am proud and although I'm not done, I am happy for now.

How has it been getting into your bathing suits this year? Horrifying? Or slightly less/more so?