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Friday, May 7, 2010

To Those Still Trying...

Found on Nic's blog...I think about this every year...so many of us are mothers before we even conceive a child. There is so much that we do and try and work at to become mothers....which makes us mothers already.

"Happy Mother's Day”
It comes around every year;
but when you have empty arms,
it's very hard to hear.
It's a day to celebrate a mother,
for all the trials she overcame;
and a reminder to an infertile
of her loneliness and shame.
But what really makes a mother,
Is it just conception and birth?
Or is there something more,
that shows a mother's worth?
It's putting your child first,
in everything you do;
it's sacrifice and determination,
and love and patience too.
An infertile woman makes all her plans,
around a child not yet conceived;
she loves them even though they aren't here,
more than she ever could have believed.
She appreciates and understands,
what a blessing that children are;
she works hard for just a chance,
that motherhood is not that far.
All odds are stacked against her,and yet she still has hope;
everyday is another struggle,
finding ways to help her cope.
So even though her arms are empty,
she can still be a mother too;
So say a special “Happy Mother's Day”
for those waiting for their dreams to come true!

Hit the wall...(updated...b/c the original post was just so interesting)

I have seriously hit the wall.

What wall?

The I'm so tired that I don't want to do anything for the entire weekend.

If only I could shut my brain off.

I hurt my back Sunday night...sleeping...who does that?

Now I can't sleep...I've barely slept all week.

I've been trying really hard to keep up on working out. I did spin class twice this week. I skipped Pilates on Tuesday night. I plan on spinning tomorrow...with all of this spinning, my arms are turning to jello. My legs (and ass) are doing all the work!

What happened to being able to do 100 pushups in a day?

I can't barely do 30 now!

After I put the kids down for their naps and showered, I sat down for my daily Days, popcorn, zoneout session and realized just how tired I am.

I've gotta pick it up.

I can hear them moving upstairs.

They're going to expect me to get off the couch.

I just know it.

If only I had a robot to get them down the stairs...and one to change their diapers...and one to give them snacks...and one to take them outside to play.

I don't have room for all of those robots.

I'll make coffee...that always helps.

Oh wait...it's 4:00. How many hours are you supposed to go without caffeine before bedtime?

How many times did I just try to spell "caffeine" correctly?

Okay, if I drink it now and go to bed at 11:00, that will be 7 hours. If you put that together with the two glasses of wine that I plan on having, I guess that would give me approximately 5.5 hours without caffeine.

Why can't I spell that word today?

What's what? You want my formula for my hours to caffeine to wine ratio? Too bad...you can't have it...trade secrets and all that crap.

Okay, getting off the computer...

I should do more pushups...that'll motivate me. Yeah, right!

Oprah's skirt is ugly today...too pink and too sparkly...too hourglassy...that's a word, right? It is now!!!

I must get out more...

Update: Immediately upon publishing this post, I went to make coffee...rather than putting the coffee in the coffee maker, I put it in my cup...who does that?